Well I guess I blew the challenge...I went up north yesterday so did not blog on this topic...I'll try to catch you up today. I spoke with Dawn yesterday morning while we were heading up north and she said Mom was having a much better day. She was right back to being her regular happy self. This made me happy because I could relax and enjoy my weekend off.
I thought I would spend this time talking about the things Mom remembers. Mom remembers that she walks from Michigan to California and back every year. She has never been taken there by any of us but one time a nice man in a truck picked her up and drove her halfway. Mom remembers that she and Pops almost bought Dawn's house when they were first married. Dawn's house wasn't built until the 1990's but that is neither here no there. Mom remembers that I am her older sister and she remembers that she has never had a manicure, pedicure or her hair colored. Nor does she wear glasses.
It is amazing to me that Mom cannot remember the truths in her life but that she comes up with these fantasies that she always remembers. Anytime anyone asks her about California she remembers she walked. Whenever she walks into Dawn's house she says she once was going to buy it. Whenever I introduce her to anyone she always tells them she is my sister.
I love my mother and I am grateful that I have had so many years with her but I can't lie and say that she has not become a burden to me and my family. I worry that one day I may have no choice but to place her in a nursing home and I pray every night that she joins Pops in Heaven before I have to make that decision. I am fortunate that my family will support any decision I make but ultimately the decision is mine and I promised Pops that I would always take care of her.